Prison Journal: #6

“ABSTRACTED REALITY”

NAMASTE’

Well,
this will be my final entry while I am still inside. Inside of a failed and over bloated and overrated system of so called justice. I eagerly await to return to the world of instant access, 24 hour convenience on demand services. Not so much for those reasons, but, to ultimately to find some solitude from them. As I try to rescue peace from the onslaught of sound. Well,
I would like to thank all the wonderful, hard working souls that have continued to push for a sane and responsible future. I have yet to determine what may happen in the up and coming weeks ahead. Again, I hope to engage on a speaking tour, so we shall see. Some of the local community is planning a release party so I am a little reluctant and unsure as to how I should act. Four months is a long way to go to forget why one is here. Well, what I mean is,
that with everything that happens, in four months, life outside is just that; four month old memories that are so far away. Well, it is now time to make NEW ones. Who's going to wake me so rudely every morning? I feel that the transition will be strange. Who’s going to have me stand in line 3 times a day waiting for food or this or that?
Life outside to me these last few days are getting a little mixed up with all the dreams and meditations of what is going to happen and what I really want to happen. It is all so strange.

So now,
I am focusing a little more on my dreams and hopes of tomorrow. I recently sent out a letter destined for congress to expressing A meager plea from behind the walls of fear destined to attempt a faint stain on the cold marble stone that controls us so thoroughly. A copy will be posted to this web site when I get out. These last few days have flown by in a flurry of the last minute things to do, the eternal curse of the American procrastinator. Yes,
it is crunch time. Late nights, later mornings; But,
thankfully no stress. Yes there are many priorities, but little time. The yoga class is now fixed and up and running with now 7 and up to 10 participants. It’s growing and for now, healthy. It is a matter of time to see if everyone is dedicated enough to keeps it going or allow one's egos' to dominate the space. I hope the transition will be smooth, but right now, there is uncertainty. I am fully engaged in developing my dreams of the future in this last week. Trying to see what I want to happen in this world and guess how my skills can be applied to do so. I am left with many options, many places to go and JUST BE for a while. My immediate concerns are whether To take a two to three month break from everything and meditate on these things, or just simply jump right in and continue to promote peace in D.C. with the S.O.A. Watch staff. To push the bill in congress thru.

Yes, I know,
it might sound strange, to take what?

Another break?

But, as of now, I envision, floating down the Mississippi River for two months sleeping outside soaking in silence, is, SO, appealing to me right Now. I feel guilty to some extent worrying about my own comfort when there's just so much work to be done.
"WELL, maybe, next spring." I will tell my self. SO,
I have been repeating that for a while now, so, something is going to happen.

Yes even now, fear still abounds and trembles in ever so subtle ways. For me, I enjoy thoroughly, living without the security of not knowing what tomorrow will bring. Many things can happen and some truly wonderful things will, it’s just I don't know what. So yeah,
it's a little scary living without a net, but that net is just an illusion. The net is either always there, or, has never been. However, some chose not to recognize it. One of the things I fear most is neglecting the things that are important. As priorities come and go, some things will go undone. The most strange of things is that; as I mentioned earlier, this financial Expert has taken an interest in our work and has expressed a desire to promote and provide means necessary to develop global economic stability. So,
what this means, is that if we can work together that this can open up Tremendous levels of opportunities for a great number of people that need Help that may not ever get access to a better way of living. So, the future Is quite open indeed.

Well, as it stands,
we have yet, to negotiate a position of roles. He has offered a partnership, but, that could mean allot. So, I have yet to fully Come to understand the fullness of what is being shared. What I do know, with the proper energy behind it, there is a great potential to provide a great Service to the world and hope to heal the mass conscious in some very practical ways.

We hope to work with the Tibetans Issues, lobby support and so on. My true passion rests in the promoting the arts. I am strongly motivated to Develop art and form to communicate the solution to all conflicts in this world. The S.O.A. is just one example of our flawed system of justice Drug policies, Imprisonment, nuclear Deterrents, Israeli support, and Iraqi Domination etc. People tend to be greedy due to the simple fact that people don't share enough. What is so evil about Communism?
What about a mixed government, like Sweden?
Well, whatever it is, something needs to be done. Sharing what we have, what we learned and done can go a long way to fix these things.
How about sharing Forgiveness? Sharing our compassion with another human being?
Sharing labor for those who cannot?
Share labor for our own specific benefit?
We shall see.

how is reality is abstracted?

As I am removed from the breakneck speed of change, growths, all the hustle and bustle of urban freedom, my memories of such things grow older just as fast. So, being an activist has become an adventurous dream of some kind? Is it true? I can believe so. The mail and the letters help allot. Just as much as the visits reinforce that those memories did indeed occur.
So after awhile it is some thing of an entertainment to realize and know why I'm here. But,
with the meditations and religious aspects, one comes to realize that the meaning of why I am here along with the others can be interpreted to be quite absurd. So,
why are we killing people for? Our American convenience? WHY people are are dying when here in prison, we throw out food that inmates don't like?
Even though the food is 15 years old. What about 10 years for selling dope?
WHO allows this to continue?
I don't know. Do you have a better Idea? Well,
there is a better Idea. Many people MUST stand up and live those ways. I congratulate all those who have and will continue to prove to the world that peace works! It can, has, and will continue to be effective in this world dominated by global greed and hate, revenge and malice.

Forgiveness is Unfair!

It is given to those who don't deserve it. Much like grace and the love from the divine. One may not ask for it, or want it, but, still we continue to receive that light. Regardless if we turn our backs to ignore it to throw stones at our brothers. Fairness is an ancient concept that still holds us back from evolving. Joseph cambell mentions in a study of myth and legends, that an eye for an eye justice is the major root of today’s problems. Eventually everyone will become blind. Vengeance and retribution is a thing of corruption. For 5,000 yrs it has yet to balance the scale of justice. It has never worked. As much as humanity Has tried, we cannot kill everyone that we hate or hates us. We CAN love all that touches our lives and share what we have. We can love all things that know that love. One can not steal what is given freely. So, these people in power with guns; what do you they want? Power? Control? Money? Slaves? What can we give them that don't have already?

Is our blood not enough?

REALITY is our responsibility to chose what we want it to be. We all live in a world of complete abundance. It is out choice. If we wish to perceive that abundance and express it fully. Every one of us is the master of this world of Samsara. (Illusions) We see the world suffering due to that some part of our being is in fear of sharing what is afraid of being lost. In complete love and acceptance, nothing can be lost. Except our pride, ego and attachments to those preprogrammed misconceptions of our reality that has been so carefully constructed for us, that we are afraid to determine our own path. There is a way.

How can one return to clarity?
Well, open your hearts and open your minds. What do you see? Do you like what you see?
Can it be changed if you don't? What can be shared? What is not being shared? WHO decides? It is our reality.
What do I see?
I see a lack of understanding. And an abundance of engineered apathy. Centuries of programmed workers and labors to maintain those in power with that knowledge. Everyone must become and active participant of in the awareness in the witness of reality. DO you see something that should not be? Please find the courage and speak out and continue to be aware! The witness the process of arrogance of false confidence. See the illusions of ignorance; that take the mind away from those who don't use it. What I see here is a lot suffering due to everyone's attachments. It is very clear when viewed form the position of our true nature. If someone wants to see their children but is forced to live in prison, it is very hard for them. What I see is officers doing what they can with as little as they can. They provide the Illusion of caring but fall short of implementing that desire due to lack of resources.
However, there are those that find comfort and get help if they cooperate and work with the system instead of against it. Every one gets what's coming to them. If they are angry, they see anger. If they are happy, they see joy. It’s that simple.

On another issues, over 200 inmates have been reported getting sick. There is an investigation being conducted as to what it may have been. Serving 15 year old military surplus food doesn't help all that much. So stay tuned. There will be an up and coming critical report being issued when I return to the outside. In attempts to expose all the dark and overlooked deficiencies that have continued here for many, many years. The issues range from officers catching civil lawsuits, food poisoning, poor or non-existent medical treatment, sexual discrimination, and racial segregation among other religious bias standards are surrounding diets.

I'll be out real soon, quicker than I'll know it.
As I say my last goodbyes, I have been pledging to return next year.
There are a lot of things I'd like to talk about and write down but the time goes by so very fast. I'm looking forward to the big lake and everyone that calls here home.

NO MAS! NO WAR!

Until we Meet Again,

Breathe love,
Be well,
Do Frolic Much,
Where The Truth Is Free,
Your Humble Servant Of Global Peace.
ozone
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